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Olivia/O. J. Barré 🐉's avatar

Thank you for sharing your story and holding this space for us, Alice. More and more, I feel out of place in a world that keeps buzzing along. Thank you for reminding us to remain open to connection. For that and creation feed our souls.

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Alice Wild's avatar

I feel that with you so much 💔. As the days and moments pass, more and more I feel this cognitive dissonance with myself in comparison to the world around me—especially my day-to-day physical life: the people and places I find myself surrounded with.

Maybe it’s a coming home—that we’ve reached ourselves creatively, at a new place. One that’s deeper and more us. Maybe next to catch up is what we surround ourselves with. Maybe that’s part of the journey and blooming in our creativity—allowing it to extend beyond our physical selves with bravery and courage. ❤️

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Olivia/O. J. Barré 🐉's avatar

Ahhh, yes... with bravery and courage. <3

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Stephanie Marie's avatar

This was so powerful and beautifully written. I felt every word. And saw myself in that whole brunch scene. I wouldn’t have been able to speak as eloquently as you did. I probably would have just nodded and passes the ball back to them. But you spoke so bravely and truthfully and in doing so, freed something in someone else. That is so beautiful and I feel inspired for having read this. 👏

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Alice Wild's avatar

I think I must have been so tired and my nervous system on such an end that the words just came out. At that time, I had been actively life coaching—putting in many, many hours and this topic had been on my mind. I had a client creativity stuck and I had realized her “stuckness” mirrored some of my own.

I am not great at dancing to a tune when it’s so false—even if everyone else at the table is dancing. I used to. But not after my hospital stay and diagnosis a few years ago.

Stephanie, I’m so glad it inspired you and I hope you’re having a good summer. Substack has been slow! I’ve been rethinking how to go about things here. Hope you are well. ❤️

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Stephanie Marie's avatar

Ooh dancing to a tune when it’s false is something I’m allergic to as well. I’m just not always good at knowing how to disrupt it. I hope you are having a great summer as well and congrats again about your plans to move!

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Alice Wild's avatar

Maybe you don’t need to disrupt the tune—maybe just knowing your heart beats to a different rhythm and staying true to that melody is the best gift of all. ❤️

And thank you! Cheers to new adventures amidst all the hard and chaos. Cheers to good things and joy—maybe—finally. :)

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Stephanie Marie's avatar

Oh I love that so much! It can be so lonely though!

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Alice Wild's avatar

Oh boy do I feel that, Stephanie. I feel like we’re birds of a feather!

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Stephanie Marie's avatar

I know! Kindred spirits!

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